Four weeks has flown!

I'm sorry I haven't been very good about updating lately.  I figure ya'll understand that things have been a *bit* busy though!  These past four weeks have literally FLOWN by.

Yup, you read that right.  Our little GPT is already FOUR WEEKS OLD!  It's so crazy how quickly the time has passed, and yet, at the same time, when I sit and think about it, I can't really remember not having Gabriel in our lives.  Someone asked me recently if my feelings towards Gabriel were any different than they were towards Lucy after she was born, since I didn't get to carry him in my belly for nine months, but also since we had wanted a child so badly I think they were curious if that caused us to feel even more connected to him and thankful for him.  It's really hard for me to put into words what I feel about my son.  It's honestly as if my heart is so full that I can't focus on one emotion long enough to figure out what any of them are.  The love I have for this little boy is just SO overwhelming.  It's true that I didn't get to carry him in my belly for nine months, but not a day went by that I wasn't praying for him-he truly was in my heart and on my mind that whole time.  So, in some strange and unexplainable way, I do feel like I knew him for those nine months that God was busy knitting him in his birthmother's womb.  And those nine months of praying for him prepared my heart to continue to lift his precious life up to the Lord.  All of those nights of praying together as a family of three for Lucy's baby brother and sister and their birthmommy have now turned into us praying together as a family of FOUR.  God heard and He answered...I just have to ask myself why I get so surprised that He did??  (Anyone else hear what I'm saying?)  But this journey has been and continues to be so faith-building for me.  God has continually reminded me that He desires for me to present my requests before Him and have confidence that He is working and will answer...

And right now I need to answer my little boy's pleas for his "midnight snack"! LOL:)  Mommyhood calls...and I'm loving it!

"Not flesh of my flesh nor bone of my bone but still miraculously my own.  Never forget for one single minute, you didn't grow under my heart but in it!"