letter, etc. I posted about last week. The above photo/quote is one I saw on FB this week that made me think of her immediately. This is what I posted about that picture:
I often hear "I don't understand how a mother
couldn't want her baby," but that is not the case at all with most
adoptions. Gabriel's birthmother is the most selfless woman I know, and
he is such a blessed little boy to be wanted and loved by so many
because of his birthmother's decision.
In her note to me today, she said: I
love you all so much and thank God every day for you and the wonderful
thing you have done to agree to be his family. He looks so happy and I
know he is.
could feel the tears welling up in my throat and trying to make their
way to my eyes as I read her words. I just can't even begin to express
the love and respect we have for this incredible woman. I've not really
shared many details of what happened the day we got to take Gabriel
home from the hospital, but imagine this...a woman loving her son so
very much that she is able to look completely beyond her own self and do
what she felt would be the very best thing for him. As she tried to
hold back her tears, she said goodbye to him and placed him in my arms. Then she hugged me and said, "Thank you."
I was speechless.
This woman was giving me the most amazing gift, yet she was the one thanking me.
I will never forget that moment in all of my life. It was the most
beautiful picture of love I have ever seen played out before me...but it
wasn't all "warm and fuzzy" feeling like we think of when we think of
love. It was drenched in tremendous grief and sorrow. It was and
remains to be a reminder to me that doing what is best is often not what is
easiest and how we should never make our choices based on the response
that they will get or the emotions they will bring about.
I made the
"mistake" once of praying for God to teach me how much He really loves
me...and it was one of the most painful processes of my spiritual walk!
I learned that to understand God's love for us, we must also understand
His pain. When we look at the picture of love He has given us, it is
one painted with nail-pierced hands. He endured the greatest sacrifice
so that we might receive the greatest gift ever known. There was
nothing easy about what Jesus had to endure, but he looked beyond Himself and towards His Father. And when I think back to that day in
the hospital almost 8 months ago when I saw such sacrifice and love
displayed right before me, I am reminded of the greatest sacrifice of
all--my Jesus dying for MY sins so that I might live. And that's why, as Christians, we are called to look to HIM and allow Him to guide us. We are called to die to self, just like Gabriel's birthmother chose to do as a mother. Every day, I strive to be that kind of mother to my children, but more importantly, I pray I can be selfless in every aspect of my life so that I can allow my Jesus to shine through me.